Im 16, I think about my future, the music I love and sometimes things that dont usually cross my mind. And this case it would be sex. The idea of sex never aroused me, but ofcourse im curious about it sometimes but just never something I cared much for.
Ive always had the right intentions for sex: do it when you’re ready and with someone you love. No exceptions. Not one or the other but both. And I plan on keeping those intentions in mind.
Ive been in a relationship with my boyfriend for close to a year and I feel like we’re ready to take the next step. But what does he expect to come out of this new experience between us both? Are they the same as mine? And before I jump into something I might back out of in the moment, im going to make sure I know what im doing. Because this isnt only “our” first time, it’ll also be MY first time. And its typical for me to fantasize that It’ll be perfect, but im keeping an open mind that “sex” isnt done completely right or feels right the first time (or maybe it does ) but it takes time.
Im going to tell myself every so often when this subject crosses my mind that this sex isnt like the rest. Its ours. You cant just assume great sex with one will be great with others just the same. Different wants and pleasures are done differently with your other.
So I know I cant put myself up to believing I wont do good or be. Good enough.
This sex will be what we both make out of it. And this sex isnt going to be a “it just happened” type, its going to be more thought about and “the moment felt right” type. Its a huge stepping stone for me in life, to be able to trust someone with yoourself with many things coming with it. Also security and feeling. Im going to take this serious because its just that important to me. To us.
And I could care less how corny this post sounds, I meant every word.
