I wont have to be sad, wouldn't have to deal with the daily bullshit. The lies and misunderstandings from you or anybody else who puts me second. One day I'll be put first, I will be loved and shown care. No more deep thoughts and second guessing myself about whether I did the right thing. It'll be my choices and decisions that make me who I am, and no judgement will follow afterwards.
One day I WILL be good enough. Enough to be loved and thought of every single day to the one I love. No excuses or problems will arise when we have our talks on comprimising such problems. I will have friends who will learn to speak as for I too, need to learn to speak. No more keeping opinions in my head, playing out the conversations and arguments in my head perfectly going my way. Taking risks worth taking and feeling just as good before such history was made in just a few minutes.
One day I will be free of these chains. Almost as if wings were to come out of me and let me fly; fly to all the places in the world ive dreamed of and those that have caught my attention in little magazine clippings and book illustrations. Going anywhere I want to go with no worries in my mind.
One day.
.......I will be happy
